Fall in the Desert

I am looking forward to moving out of NY to Arizona, it a big way.. but the closer it's gets I start thinking about the things I'll miss. Although NY is home, and everyone I know is here, I know I will always be able to come back, but I keep thinking that when I'm living there[arizona] in the Fall and winter, I'm going to be the crazy NY girl who turns her AC on high and curl up in sweats and a comforter just to feel at home. I will miss the northeast when the leaves change and the air is crisp, and the first snowfall, wearing sweaters, hot coffee, cider, etc. But, when it's out of my system I can put on my bikini head down to the pool for some perfect 85 degree sunny weather and have the locals think I'm crazy again because 85 is cold to their comparable 105 the rest of the year :).

misplaced

Every feel like you should be at another stage of life, of your career? Since I recently graduated with my masters degree, I feel like I have the knowledge and experience to be at a further stage of my career, but feel so stuck as I search for jobs. I know I can be inpatient and it takes years for people to climb the career ladder, but it's frustrating when you know you can be doing so much more and just can't get there.

The Not-So-Perfect Life

I have been a perfectionist all of my life. I think at times it is a good quality to have, because I strive to be the best I can be at everything that I do. But, lately I have been thinking about it, and I'm seeing that it's more than just a good quality, it something that is a facade put up because of something deeper inside of me. It's being afraid of failing, afraid of failing those closest around me, failing and not being able to recuperate from it. Afraid of just not being great at everything.
Realizing all of this, I am working on being ok, at not being great at everything. It's ok to be at fault, and fail, and then learn from it. That's all you can do. When you learn from it you become a better person, instead of hiding from your imperfections of trying to be perfect.